All the things I do not know

Perfectly planned and organized

is how I have always lived my life

Knowing what happens next

Never would I perplex

But life has a way of changing

And plans call for rearranging

So much out of my control

Anxiety starts to take a toll

Raising a child with special needs

Has a way of planting seeds

Some of joy, some of doubt

Always something to worry about

The future has become uncertain

Hidden behind an unmovable curtain

The list has grown and grown

Of all the things that are unknown

I don’t know the sound of your voice.

I don’t know your favorite color.

I don’t know if you like the clothes I pick for you.

I don’t know the dream that made you cry out.

I don’t know the names of your classmates.

I don’t know what you had for lunch.

I don’t know if you understand what we say.

I don’t know what the world is like for you.

I hope with time I can know more

Such much the future has in store

But for now I am grateful for

All the things I know for sure

I know you love your bacon crispy.

I know you are ticklish on your neck.

I know you are strong and coordinated.

I know you love to swing and swim.

I know you have no fear.

I know you are tired when you snuggle up with me on the couch.

I know when you wake up giggling in the middle of the night you aren’t going back to sleep.

I know you will only eat the icing off a cupcake.

I know you are truly happy when you are smiling.

I know I love you without condition.

I know you love me.

I can feel it, I don’t need to hear it.